Days out and stuff

Last week I took my kids to Dover Castle which you can read about in my more public blog here. However, what I didn't say was that one of the reasons I wanted to go was to try and pull myself out of this rut that I find myself in and can't seem to find my way out of.

I have a friend who has been a friend of mine for a fair few years now. We both went through a split in our relationships at the same time and we would spend at least one day every week chatting about how we had felt in the last week and having coffee. When I moved away, I would make sure I called her regularly - which was about once a month, and I would be sitting in a cafe drinking coffee while chatting to her so it was almost like we were doing the same thing. Since I have moved back, however, things seem to have changed. I find her more unapproachable. She spends a hell of a lot of time with my ex-wife which makes me think that this is one of the reasons she no longer wants to talk to me. In January I decided that I would let her choose when she wanted to have a coffee so I didn't contact her. By March I figured that I would have to make the first move so I called her and arranged a coffee, but the morning of the coffee, I looked on facebook which is something I hadn't done for a while, and she had arranged to have coffee with someone else about midday which peeved me off a bit. When I was leaving I said that we should leave it less time until our next one. That was six weeks ago. I have sent her one text in that time which she has not replied to. So this leaves me with two people in Folkestone that I can talk to, and I don't want to put too much on them as they have enough problems of their own at the moment.

So for now, it is a case that I have to plod along in my own world pretending that everything is fine.